"I am the LORD, your Holy One, Isreal's Creator, your King" Isaiah 43:15
I guess it's only appropriate when you've been in such a good place for things to be rattled to be reminded of who God is and how much He is alive and working in your life. Right? I guess I had one of those moments last night during our cookout Bible study. We were looking at Ephesians 1:1-14. I've read part of Ephesians before and enjoyed it, but last night, something just wasn't sitting well.
Predestination v. Free Will. How many times has it been debated? How many churches have split because of this? I don't have the answers to those questions, but I can tell you last night it ripped apart my head. Throughout the entire discussion I sat there writing all over this paper this dialogue I was having in my head. I'm not going to go into detail about what I was writing (if you want to know, ask me) because it would take too long and need to be translated (yes, I wrote it in Spanish). Needless to say, it really bothered me and I'm still not quite over it. Throughout all of it I am praying that I would be hearing the voice of truth and not just going on this winding road alone. I wish I had been listening to the discussion, though. It sounded like a lot of great things were said and discussed.
I guess the other thing is I don't know how much this should impact me. Is this a topic that should really change how I view God? Should it change the way I live my life? Regardless of whether I chose to follow Christ or it was chosen for me, does this take away from my desire to serve and lead a life according to Him? For me it just called into question a lot of things. I think me writing this and getting it out of my head is helping to process, but wow, just really bothered me yesterday and apparntly still is as countless people at work have asked me if I'm okay. I guess I wear it all over my face what's going on. Last night I had an intense look almost the entire time, too.
But I guess this is good, right? We can't sit her and be complacent in our beliefs (I have no idea how to spell that word, by the way). We learn and grow through challenging our thoughts and what it is we think we know. I guess the only true knowledge comes from God and not what we think. So I guess when we are believing what we think, God throws it at us and says, "No. You're wrong. This is truth." I don't know.
Well, that's what's rolling around in my head. Thanks for reading.
Until next time.
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ReplyDeleteWhether or not this will change the way you live? I think it has to do what you think you were chosen for-- were you as an individual chosen for heaven? Or maybe we as a people who recognize the reality of Christ are chosen for somehting else; a mission; an inclusion of all...
ReplyDeletecan't wait to talk it over with you